The anticipation and let down on a monthly basis has been traumatic. It has taken a toll on my relationships. I'm not embarrassed but I feel alone as people don’t talk about the subject of infertility. I am vocal with my family and friends about our journey. It is becoming increasingly more difficult to talk about it. I’m not projecting any blame or anger onto others for my struggles. I just let all the good-intentioned comments that miss their intended sentiment slide and listen calmly to advice and “have you tried this or that” questions. I smile and thank them accepting prayers, encouragement, and blessings. I hide how much it hurts. In private, I cry from disappointment, frustration, anger, and sadness. I berate my body and obsessively question why I can’t get pregnant. My husband and constant companion lets me cry on his shoulder. With each passing month, our hearts grow heavier. I can see how my sadness permeates into him. We are both strong with a great support system for which we are abundantly grateful. I hope that one day I can use my experience and voice to help someone else struggling with infertility. I want to be vocal and advocate so that others don’t feel as alone.
I feel very blessed with the opportunities that I have received; there’s just something missing. We have spent the last several years waiting to live our lives. Every decision we make is anchored by our attempts to start a family. It has been discouraging and painful but I’m still hopeful. Although I can’t promise we will be perfect parents, we can provide love, understanding, and stability. If we are lucky enough to receive the grant, it would be life altering for our fertility journey. Thank you Maddy, founders, and the Hadwin Family Foundation for making me feel seen. I sincerely thank you for your time and consideration.
We have been here for 6 years, married for almost 3 and purchased our first home together. I am now the Associate Broker and absolutely love what I do! I have always worked hard to accomplish my goals, and one of my greatest goals is to have a child with my beautiful wife. We have been trying to conceive for over 3 years, and have tried multiple other options including the lUl procedure a few times. With my current career, my annual income varies greatly and it makes it hard to save when you don't know when your next paycheck is coming. My wife Tara just turned 37 years old, and we want nothing more than to be parents. I know that if you accept our application, it will not go to waste. I will take pride in being a loving, caring, and devoted father. I will make sure to work hard to provide for and create opportunities for our child to be the best version of themself. Being a father would be my greatest achievement, and I can promise, I will always put in 100 percent of my effort for my family.